Long time since last entry... There was much going on. But that's not the point right now.
I've gone into a state where I can't deny my insomnia. I can't sleep earlier than like 6 AM lately and wake up really late as well. But sometimes such a vast state of the mind is where you think the most. Earlier today, I've experienced drama on the page I admin. It was headaching and a lot of stress. I was told that drama is inevitable by someone who I really care about, but as I was stressed out, I couldn't reply too well.
Because it's true, but not in every case. There are some serious conflicts that can't be solved in other ways than drama, but those aren't small things at all. It must be something of great importance, a good example is fighting for a loved one while there's another guy on the roll.
And now to the piss off topic - For heck, I wouldn't care if that guy there kept that stupid file in the dropped section. But when he goes all ego about it, of course I'm gonna headache over it. It's disturbing the peace of the forum, people nearly leave. Drama shouldn't be forced, it's driving people insane. When I heard the guy might have intended that, I felt mad at him again.
I'm getting terribly scared. Of the fate of this forum, of the fate of the friends that still trust the guy. He's known to manipulate, I know he hates me now. I don't want to make anymore enemies. And definitely not people I care about. It would break me inside. I still want to fight, because without fighting you'll never achieve anything.
I don't even know what to say. Sometimes I think a sentence I say opposes another sentence I said a while ago. Makes you feel awkward, doesn't it? Makes you insane, doesn't it?
I'm starting to feel horrible from this all, like that guy's going to destroy me.
(If there's anything you want me to edit out, or if you want me to remove this article, message me.)
I've gone into a state where I can't deny my insomnia. I can't sleep earlier than like 6 AM lately and wake up really late as well. But sometimes such a vast state of the mind is where you think the most. Earlier today, I've experienced drama on the page I admin. It was headaching and a lot of stress. I was told that drama is inevitable by someone who I really care about, but as I was stressed out, I couldn't reply too well.
Because it's true, but not in every case. There are some serious conflicts that can't be solved in other ways than drama, but those aren't small things at all. It must be something of great importance, a good example is fighting for a loved one while there's another guy on the roll.
And now to the piss off topic - For heck, I wouldn't care if that guy there kept that stupid file in the dropped section. But when he goes all ego about it, of course I'm gonna headache over it. It's disturbing the peace of the forum, people nearly leave. Drama shouldn't be forced, it's driving people insane. When I heard the guy might have intended that, I felt mad at him again.
I'm getting terribly scared. Of the fate of this forum, of the fate of the friends that still trust the guy. He's known to manipulate, I know he hates me now. I don't want to make anymore enemies. And definitely not people I care about. It would break me inside. I still want to fight, because without fighting you'll never achieve anything.
I don't even know what to say. Sometimes I think a sentence I say opposes another sentence I said a while ago. Makes you feel awkward, doesn't it? Makes you insane, doesn't it?
I'm starting to feel horrible from this all, like that guy's going to destroy me.
(If there's anything you want me to edit out, or if you want me to remove this article, message me.)
